quinta-feira, 31 de julho de 2014

Disney? Eu? Imagina...

    Não tenho como negar: Eu sou uma Disney ambulante.
    Cresci com os filmes da Disney, todos eles com um final feliz. Sempre com o cara perfeito aparecendo e conquistando a mocinha (as vezes arredia)... Eu estou aqui, esperando pelo meu príncipe. Bem, já encontrei, mas é um relacionamento platônico...
   




    Olhando para essas fotos uma parte de uma música me vem a mente: "We are never getting (BACK) together." Vai ser uma coisa que ficará apenas na minha mente...

Coming Out Simulator



    Today I was looking online for news and I just found a game called “Coming Out Simulator”. It says that the game was inspired in a real story, the story of the creator of the game. It is a nice game. You can feel like you are somebody else and can get a experience about how is to come out of the closet.
    I don’t know if my English is good, but in the end of the game he just said that the game was forged. Not everything in the game is truth.
    Well, in the game you have to choose the answers to the things (there’s no right or wrong answer) and they don’t forget the things you said.
    The game is simple, but it is really interesting. I would recommend it for some people I know.
    It’s not about the game, but it is about coming out. I was watching a TV show yesterday called “Family Cases” (Casos de Família), and it was about people coming out to their relatives. The reactions of the parents were the worst. A mother told to her daughter not to call her mother ever. And a Godmother told her godson to leave her house. And there’s a psychologist there, she said one thing I always think when I see this kind of thing happening. What kind of love is this that vanishes if the son/daughter do not end up as the parents wanted? It is not love.
    Back to the game: Here you can play the game. There’s also a version to download… It is free!



Simulador de Saída do Armário

    Hoje eu estava procurando por notícias na internet e acabei encontrando um jogo chamado “Coming Out Simulator” (Simulador de Saída do Armário). No site estava escrito que o jogo foi inspirado em uma história real, a história do criador do jogo. É um jogo legal. Você pode sentir como se fosse outra pessoa e ter uma experiência de como é sair do armário.
    Eu não sei se meu inglês está bom, mas no final do jogo ele diz que o jogo foi forjado. Nem tudo no jogo é verdade.
    Bem, no jogo você tem que escolher as respostas para as coisas (não há resposta certa ou errada) e eles não se esquecem das coisas que você disse.
    O jogo é simples, mas é muito interessando. Eu recomendaria para algumas pessoas que eu conheço.
    Não é sobre o jogo, mas é sobre sair do armário. Eu estava assistindo a um programa de televisão chamado “Casos de Família”, e era sobre pessoas saindo do armário para seus parentes. A reação dos pais foram as piores. Uma mãe disse para sua filha nunca mais chamá-la de mãe. E uma madrinha disse para o afilhado para sair de sua casa. Tinha uma psicóloga lá, ela disse uma coisa que eu sempre penso quando vejo esse tipo de coisa acontecendo. Que tipo de amor é esse que desaparece se @ filh@ não acaba como os pais queriam? Isso não é amor.
    De volta ao jogo: Aqui você pode jogar o jogo. Tem uma versão para download... É de graça!

domingo, 27 de julho de 2014

Does it get better?

    I know, I should make a video with everything I'm going to write here, but I am shy (and I'm not out).
    I'm just writting it because I really feel like I need help.
    I want to tell the world that I am gay, and when I say that I want to tell the world I mean my mother. I think she is the only person that really matters when it comes to telling that I am gay.
    In an older post here I wrote that my mother would accept it, but the most I think about her I realize that things would never be so easy. Everytime that somebody here says something about gays she says that if she was one she would never tell. She is the kind of person who says: "It is okay to be gay, but not in my house."
    When I was younger she asked me if I was gay. I was fourteen. I remember that I told her that I wasn't ready to talk about it. She said that she would be okay with it. She said that she would love me the same way she did. Beautiful lines, aren't they?
    Well, things changed. We are not as connected as we used to be. Nowadays we are two stranges living under the same roof. Day by day we get more apart. And she acts as if our conversation never happend. She talks about me married with a girl and with kids. Well, this is not me.
    I don't want to hide it anymore because it makes me sad and I don't think that being gay is wrong. Why do I have to hide something if I don't think it is wrong? Everyday I think about killing be. I've been saving all my thoughts just for me. Sometimes I write them donw in a piece of paper, sometimes I talk about them with the mirror. It is killing me day by day.
    I used to complain about the thinks I was feeling, but people would just roll their eyes and say that I was just trying to call everybody's attention. This is not me. I mean, I would like to have attention, but I would never say that I want to die to call attention. I just wanted somebody to talk to me, somebody to say that everything was going to be okay.
    I try to look okay, but I know that I am not a good actor. When I look at the mirror I see the sadness in my eyes. The thing is that I am the only person in this world who cares about it.
    I hate myself, most of the time. I look at me and I want to cut myself to look different, to be someone else. I just gave up on me. You know that things are not okay when you start saying to yourself that you don't deserve to be loved. Now I look like a homeless person. I keep saying that I don't care, but I do. If I was okay with everything I wouldn't be as wounded as I am.
    What can I do to feel better? I don't know what to do. I keep trying to help people, but I need help too. When you open the blog everything you see are pictures of happy couples kissing each other. I made this. It is jus a thing that I really wanted, but I just found out that I'll never have. When you grow up you realize that happiness is not a thing that everyone can have. Some people have to be sad, so other people will know they are happy.
    I have a friend. I told him that I was gay (well, he told me that he was gay and then I told him that I was gay.) Talk to him really helps me. I like to know that I can be myself with someone. But I can't talk to him about everything. All the time I want to complain about something, and it's not good to drown people with our complaints. Everybody has problems.
    I'm feeling really lonely right now. Well, not right now. I'm always lonely. I could be in the middle of a crowded place and I would feel like I was alone, because that is the truth, isn't it? We are all alone, lost in our minds.
    Will it get better someday? I just can't stand this anymore. That's why I keep thinking about killing myself. I feel like I was immortal, just to remain here and suffer forever. I've seen my future and nothing changed. When I go out I think about throwing myself in front of a car or jumping in a river. I just want to put an end in this pain I've been carrying for so long.
    I would never write it here. This kind of thing I keep in my mind or write in my journal. In my journal nobody rolls eyes or labels me. I just want to scream and put this out of my body, out of my mind.
    I wish I was happy. At least for one day. I wish I could be me without being pointed as a freak.
    I think I should just lie down and try to forget everything. The wight I've been carrying on my shoulders is killing me. Slowly.
    Does it get better?
    Will it get better someday?
    Just tell me that there's a way out of all this shit...

quinta-feira, 24 de julho de 2014

Zeppelin



Eli Lieb: Zeppelin



    Eli Lieb has released a new song, and a new video clip. I guess this is the third song of his CD. The first one was “Young Love” (I really love this song and the music video)… The second one was “Safe In Your Hands” and now “Zeppelin”.

    I don’t have too much to talk about it, but the video is right here. Watch and let me know what you think. And if you have any suggestion just post it below.



Eli Lieb: Zeppelin



    Eli Lieb lançou uma nova música, e um novo vídeo clipe. Eu acho que é a terceira música do CD dele. A primeira foi “Young Love” (Eu realmente amo essa música e o vídeo)... A segunda foi “Safe In Your Hands” e agora “Zeppelin”.

    Não tenho muito a dizer sobre a música, mas o vídeo está aqui. Assista e me deixe saber o que você acha. E se tiver alguma sugestão coloque abaixo.






Bônus... :)

Cover Boy



    Turn The Music Up: Cover Boy



    Did you miss the songs here? Well, today I’m going to talk about music. I believe you already know Matt Fishel, don’t you? (If you don’t know it is your loss) This month Matt Fishel released an EP with 7 songs. 7 covers sang by him (of course)…

    I was on youtube yesterday and started looking for Matt Fishel and found his video clip for his cover of the song “Finally”. What can I say about it? It is more than perfect. You all should watch it. There are lots of pictures of happy gay couples (I wish I had one to send to them) and the song is really good in Matt Fishel’s voice. You all NEED to listen to it.

    You can purchase the songs on itunes. Just click here.



    Here is a list with all the tracks:



1-    Summer Rain

2-    Run With Us

3-    Finally

4-    Big Casino

5-    Sky Fits Heaven

6-    Tonight Is What It Means To Be Young

7-    Hyperballad



    If you’ve already listened to it let us know. Comment what you think about it below.



    P.S.: Listen to his other album: “Not Thinking Straight”. You won’t regret.





    Aumente a Música: Cover Boy



    Sentiu falta das músicas aqui? Bem, hoje eu vou falar sobre música. Eu acredito que você já conheça Matt Fishel, não?(se não conhece não sabe o que está perdendo) Esse mês Matt lançou um EP com 7 músicas, 7 covers cantados por ele (claro)...

    Eu estava no youtube ontem e comecei a procurar pelo Matt Fishel e encontrei o vídeo clipe para o seu cover da música “Finally”. O que posso dizer sobre o clipe? É mais do que perfeito. Todos vocês deviam vê-lo. Tem várias fotos de casais gays (queria ter uma para poder mandar) e a música é muito boa na voz do Matt Fishel. Você PRECISA ouvir.

    Vocês podem comprar as músicas no itunes. Basta clicar aqui.



    Aqui tem uma lista com o nome das músicas.



1-    Summer Rain

2-    Run With Us

3-    Finally

4-    Big Casino

5-    Sky Fits Heaven

6-    Tonight Is What It Means To Be Young

7-    Hyperballad



    Se vocês já ouviram deixem que saibamos. Comente embaixo o que você achou.



    P.S.: Ouçam ao outro álbum dele também “Not Thinking Straight”. Não irão se arrepender.